Posted in Writer Life

Is this thing on?

*Taps Mic*

Is this thing on? Can you hear me?

Hi there, it’s been a minute or two. I think I’ve written before about how the pandemic really hampered my creativity and creative schedule. Although we seem to be returning to normal, for better or worse, that hasn’t helped the situation.

My full time job has been crushing. Everyday I feel as if a boulder has landed on me. My head hurts, I clench my jaw, grind my teeth and I don’t have the capacity for much beyond the stress and frustration I feel. I find myself living in a constant state of stress (my Garmin watch agrees). Even after the work day ends, I’ve struggled to find time for creativity, myself, anything really. I’m never decompressed enough to work on anything else beyond basic survival of myself and family.

I am exhausted.

So this year, I’m taking a risk and making a leap. I turned in my notice at the full time job and am going to devote myself full time to the things I’m passionate about. Hopefully some of them will pay the bills along the way.

This is actually pretty terrifying when I think about it because it’s not just me. I have a family, pets, etc but I also have a safety cushion and have done the math over and over to know I can survive for at least a little while.

Last year I had a goal of writing 1 story a month which I absolutely didn’t do, not even a little bit. For this year, I gave myself a similar goal of writing at least 6 stories, 1 every 2 months. With some space to breathe, I can hopefully meet it.

No matter how scary the idea of actually taking this leap is, it’s so nice to actually be able to crawl from under this boulder and have the capacity to work on these things.

So here’s to a new year, new adventures and new leaps.

If you’re reading this, take a second and tell me how you’re doing.

Posted in Writer Life

Ice Ice Baby

This past week has been a little crazy.

Monday through Wednesday were beautiful weather then Thursday we had an ice storm, which seems to be becoming the weather of choice for Feb. Because of that we lost power for almost 24 hours.

I had a blog idea in the midst of that but … there was just a lot of other stuff going on.

I think it may have been about resilience and fatigue and how much staying strong (or even just staying upright) during these last few years has had a toll.

I come from a traumatic background and know how hard it can be to exist in survival mode for any length of time. Even if we may not realize it, most of us have probably been in survival mode for a while. It looks different for everyone but we all definitely feel the fatigue, or maybe the languishing, of it.

My question of the day for you is do you feel this too? What are some ways you’ve cared yourself in the midst of all this?

(Photo from last years Feb ice storm)

Posted in Writer Life

Writing Goal

One of my goals for this year is to put together another book. I’ve had a thought for a while that it would be cool to write a book with several micro fiction or vignette type pieces around a central theme or character or event.

Starting in Feb/end of Jan I’m going to try and write 1 piece a week, which after writing practically nothing last year will be a challenge.

I’ve read books like this and plan to revisit those too. What books have you read that were comprised of smaller stories centered around one event, character, etc?

I’m also excited to actually put together a book again. When I released my poetry book in 2020 it was very much an experiment for me. I picked the pieces, composed them in a way that felt good (but may not have actually flowed well), designed the cover … It was fun. I want to continue learning about that part of the process this year.

I hope you’re all doing well in this unending insanity we call life.

Posted in Word Prompt


Well, hi there.

It’s been a while, I understand if you don’t recognize me.

How to fully explain where I’ve been … (if you care I suppose).

I’ve posted 22 times this year. Slightly under last years 25. I guess there has been a pandemic right?

Lately, I’ve thought a lot about my lack of writing and my creative slump. I crave creativity, it makes me feel good and I want to chase that feeling … but I’m also working 3 (2 1/2 really) jobs.

I’ve also been on a kick for the last few years to really work on me. I felt like I’d been living from a place of survival, like I was still clawing my way back from some of the not-as-good places I’d been in my life.

Not only does it leave me feeling behind but when I finally get to a point where I no longer think I need to “just survive” I don’t know what to do with that. Pulling myself upwards no longer really worked because I was on a different type of path.

In short, it’s been a couple of reflective years and between that and everything else I had nothing creative coming to me. I thought I should have, there was definitely some content there, but maybe I was too close to it.

Anyway, one of my goals now is to create a new writing schedule and stick to it. Hopefully we’ll be seeing a lot more of each other.

Posted in Coaching

What Does It Cost You?

I don’t know that Aristotle actually said this but this is the energy I’m taking into the week.

I’ve been working on my self-discipline for a couple of years now. At one point, right around when I turned 30, I realized I never really got anything done because I wasn’t disciplined enough to stick with it.

It wasn’t anybody else’s fault, though I may have tried to blame them. It was mine.

It’s really easy to start something, look it over and go “this is crap”. It’s easy to walk away from things that are harder than you thought they would be.

Modern day humanity is all about the convenience and there’s nothing more convenient than quitting. ( Note: There are valid times to quit. That’s not what I’m talking about here.)

A question I learned to ask myself is simple. It’s “what does this cost you?” Or “what is this costing you?”

It’s a question that aims for the heart of the issue. If you’re tolerating and settling then what are you missing out on?

Maybe it also plays off our collective FOMO (fear of missing out).

Either way, when I began asking myself and really digging into the answers I found a lot of my failures had to do with my lack of self-discipline.

I never finished a story or a book. I never invested in myself through making sure I worked out. I never truly made creativity into my career.

There were reasons for all of these but they all boiled down my starting and stopping once something became difficult. As a result I didn’t trust myself to follow through on the things I wanted to do. In my mind it was better to just daydream about them instead.

So this week I want to ask you, what are you tolerating or settling for in your life? What is that costing you?

Posted in Coaching

Energy – An Intro

Let’s talk about energy. 

We all possess it, manipulate it and even desire it. 

Energy isn’t inherently good or bad but our perceptions can color the energy we’re receiving and putting back out.

For example, you feel down, stuck, the world is against you … that becomes the energy you exude and in turn the energy you attract back to you. 

Being at a low energy shifts our perspective to the more negative things in life. There can be plenty of good but at a low energy there’s a higher chance you miss it or perceive it as not good.

My coaching is about helping one raise that energy level. A coach can guide you through negative beliefs that affect your perception and help you create new beliefs that support a higher energy level. 

This is one of the things that has fascinated me about coaching because it’s something I have seen play out in myself and others. 

I also think it’s important to recognize that you have to do the work in these situations. Sitting around waiting for an improvement to just fall into your lap does not work. Additionally, if you perceive most things as negative then you’re less likely to dive in and do the work necessary to get what you want.

You’re far more invested in a positive outcome when you have a positive energy level and outlook to support it.

We have to take tangible steps towards raising our energy and getting the things we truly desire in life.

Coaching brings this full circle by allowing me to help others do the work which I find amazingly fulfilling. It gives me the tools needed to bring my “hippie energy” mindset into a realm of using it to concretely help others. 

Posted in stream of consciousness

Stir My Soul

WordPress Daily Prompt – Focused

I’ve been sitting here,
Focusing, focusing,
But the rapping of the clock
Reminds me of the way you knock
When you lean on my door while
Stirring my soul with your chains.
A thick boiling concoction of self loathing
Heaving this way and that with an evil all its own
Threatening to tear holes straight through
Letting all the light bleed out.
You give it a siren song,
A melody so sweet,
I can’t help but feel at peace.

Meanwhile over on the collaboration blog … my blog is now up!

The Perfectly Imperfect Bunch

Write for Yourself by Nitesh

Why Write? by Grabbety

It Comes with the Territory by Kelley

We’ll have more from more amazing collaborators soon!